This is bullshit.....

"Basket Case"

by Sara Bareilles

I don't want to talk about it to you
I'm not an open book that you can rifle through
The cold hard truth that you'll see right to
I'm just basket case without you

He's not a magic man or a perfect fit
But had a steady hand and I got used to it
And a glass cage heart and invited me in
And now I'm just a basket case without him

You're begging for the truth
So I'm saying it to you
I've been saving your place
And what good does it do?
Now I'm just a basket case
Now I'm just a basket case

I don't say much and it'll stay that way
You got a steel train touch and I'm just a track you lay
So I'll stay right here underneath you
I'm just a basket case and that what we do

You're begging for the truth
So I'm saying it to you
I've been saving your place
And what good does it do?
Now I'm just a basket case

Won't somebody come on in and tug at my seams?
Oh, send your armies in of robbers and thieves
To steal the state I'm in I don't want it anymore

You're begging for the truth
So I'm saying it to you
I've been saving your place
And what good does it do?
Now I'm just a basket case

Ballox!

I'm freakin' out right now!

I just want it to be the weekend right now so I can stop all this worrying I am doing and just get some shit sorted out. I realize that this is very cryptic.... but I don't even want to talk about it out loud because I am afraid the universe will see it and say: "Oh, no, no, no... You aren't allowed to be happy... Stop that shit right now!"

BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"California sounds nice, but California's a lie, maybe I'm outta luck, or maybe I'm just blind.."

Times like this make me want to give up... usually....

But this tim, I'm fighting back. I'm going to use this stress in my everyday life and make the life ahead of me my BITCH!

I'm toooootally drunk right now on account of the not so awesome day I just had, but I mean it.

No more mister nice Jess.

ITS ON WORLD!

Hear me roar BITCH!!!

Wow....

I just had SUCH an amazing night.......

AMAZING.

"Friendly fire is a funny term, like Civil War"

I have done something that I never thought I would ever EVER do and now I feel awful about it. On top of that I think I am losing friends over it. When will I learn what real friends are? The person I feel like I am in 'love' with and always have been, is with someone else. I am tired of life shitting on me, this is when I get that urge o move away and start over. Seattle will have to do for me.

I am back to square 1.

It's me, and only me. Back into my dark hole I go.

Well.... Crap.

Baby Remy Elliana DiMaggio